Throwback Post: Float Your Boat

**THROWBACK POST**


(Photo by me, taken during a 2017 Walk)

December 11 2017:

After an extremely rough afternoon, what a blessing to receive a sweet, loving, kind, and generous message … Just the push I needed to bring on the sobbing so I could connect and release ….

When you have one with difficulties in the executive functions area, it is nearly impossible to suggest spur of the moment activities. In Lillian’s case a meltdown is going to happen 95% of the time.

Yet, I continue to try. We have a blu-ray Christmas movie to watch from the library as they had no regular DVD of this movie.

I figured we could watch it at the lodge in the theater as their equipment will play blu-ray. (I use a really old portable DVD player plugged into a projector for our movie watching as we don’t have a TV.)

I looked on the library website and saw we would have to return the movie on Wednesday so I suggested we head on over and watch it. Well, at the same time, I must have given my patience a vacation. And, invited every worry and concern that has been bothering me over the past three months.

Two kids having meltdowns, one mom having an outburst, and two hours later ….. We are still out of sorts … but this wonderful and generous message was exactly what my heart needed ….

Sharing for anyone else who is having an off day, anyone who gave their patience the day off, or anyone who invited worry and concerns to cloud their day … From one human to another; I share a loving, warm, heart hug with you … And say .. You are not alone. Be still. And know …. xoxo

I find when I am already in “Why me victim mode” and my thoughts are full of worries and concerns that having nothing to do with a current incident … That’s when I lose it. So … when not in that meltdown moment I practice mindfulness and meditation and walks in nature so that I can have a balanced and peaceful perspective most times. Yet, we are human, so that’s not going to happen every time … And … That. Is. Okay …. xoxo

I have felt incredibly out of sorts and in a huge fog lately. Along with some anxiety. I know when I feel anxiety it is usually due to something surfacing that it would be best for me to connect with so as to release. Sometimes I forget that, though, and resist …

Most times if I would quit trying to row the boat and just let that sweet little boat float through life, peace would be more consistent …. For, I fully believe that life knows what its doing and has my back …. xoxo

Blessings,
Camilla
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“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 19 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 15 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Thank You Dr. Wayne Dyer

Oceans of gratitude to Wayne Dyer. Because of you, I will not die with my music still inside of me. I am finally letting myself sing the songs that only I can sing.

It was the summer of 2012 when Wayne Dyer came into my life. Perfectly timed; for the teacher arrives when the student is ready.

I met a new friend for breakfast one summer morning in 2012. We had a great time talking over breakfast about our past and current life adventures. As we were saying goodbye, he said that there was something in his car that he was supposed to give to me. I stood there waiting and wondering what on earth this new friend could possibly have in his car that I was supposed to have.

He came back with the above in his hand. It’s an audio of a weekend seminar that Wayne Dyer delivered in Hawaii. He simply said, “This is yours now. You will know when to pass it on.” At the time, I was thinking, “How odd?! How could he possibly know that he was supposed to give this to me.” Three years later, I get it.

I began to listen to it immediately, not even “grasping” some of the concepts and actually getting irritated with some of the content. I listened over and over and over .. and then I begin to experience a slight shift within me.

The most powerful piece of The Shift audio for me is the section where Wayne Dyer talks about “Going Home” as it relates to the foods we eat and habits we have. I began to ask myself in certain situations, “Are you headed home Camilla?” From that moment forward I read one Wayne Dyer book after another. I still have not read them all.

The next most powerful message from The Shift audio for me was Dyer’s story of equating the song “Row, row, row your boat …” to life. I wrote a blog post in May 2013 titled, “Live Your Purpose” that was partly inspired by this message.

Then I began to read books that Wayne Dyer mentions in his books and lectures. I checked out every Wayne Dyer audio book and lecture that the Washoe County Library System had. This is very similar to the shift that occurred for me back in 1997.

I had been wanting to watch Dyer’s movie, The Shift. (The movie is free to watch through September 30th as it was his wish to have 3 million people watch it.) I finally found it at the library last year and we watched it for a Team TLC movie night. I’m so grateful I got to share watching it with Thomas and Lillian. They loved it. Especially Thomas. With Wayne’s passing, we just recently watched it again as Hay House has posted it for viewing. It’s such a powerful movie.

His wasn’t the only content and material I devoured. Yet, Wayne Dyer was the catalyst. Since that moment, every single book I read, every new friendship formed, friendships that faded, old friendships rekindled, every movie I’ve watched, audio I’ve listened to, blog post written, every meditation, every message, every synchronistic moment, decisions made,  every “career” move … have all lead to the shift that occurred and is still in process.

I had never been so moved and inspired by nature as has happened since the summer of 2012. In January 2013 I visited Fallen Leaf Lake. I had not been there before and had the most amazing experience. I wrote a post about it with some great pictures. Here’s part of what Fallen Leaf inspired …

Earth Dance

As the sun’s rays dance upon you like stars twinkling in the night sky, so shall our souls dance upon this Earth.

As you are who you are with ease, so shall we no longer struggle to be who we are.

As you …. (read more)

In 2014, I was rereading, There’s a Spiritual Solution to Every Problem, when another huge shift occurred for me. I wrote about it here, titled, “Magical Ingredient”.

At some point in my young life I stopped living from the heart, wrapped it up tight, and began living from my head. I now shower that young Camilla with love and have been on the path to removing the shell that surrounds my heart. Many times it’s been a difficult path, yet I would not change a single thing.

I love sharing kindness and love and I love being me and sharing what comes from my heart. In the past I did not share for fear of other people’s reactions. I now know what’s in all of our hearts is divine and should be shared. It may rub some the wrong way, yet there is at least one person, if not many, who will benefit from what one shares from the heart. When we share from the heart it creates a ripple effect … an effect that reaches farther than we will ever know. What’s in our heart is the treasure we are meant to share.

Once again, oceans of gratitude to Wayne Dyer. Because of you, I will not die with my music still inside of me. I am finally letting myself sing the songs that only I can sing. You arrived when I was ready.

From Wayne Dyer’s movie, The Shift “The Song” … Watch it! It’s Awesome!

Heartfuly Inspired,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

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