Throwback Post: The Ghost of Smallness

**THROWBACK POST**

I think this is from 2017 … It has not been corrected for grammar.

The Ghost of Smallness

Look into the
face of anxiety.
Stand with anxiety,
knowing not fear
for anxiety is
a ghost of the past.

Anxiety haunts,
Lurking in the shadows.
Hidden and simply
waiting to emerge again.

Causing the grip of
freedom to be lost
and smallness to
settle once again in
its rightful place.

Knowing to be looked at
and felt with no fear
would surely
be the end.

And the one looking
Would regain
the grip of freedom.

As you are faced and felt,
you would be no longer
Dissolve you would
as you are faced and felt.

As the host
remembers that
I am light and love
and light and love
bring alchemy and
transform both of us

allowing me to see myself as the divine sees me
and allowing you to become love and light
and haunt me no longer.

(I recently changed the hosting company for this website, along with all other websites I manage. In the aftermath, my draft posts got deleted. Oh no! Fortunately, they were in the back up and could be reinstalled. However, the original draft dates were deleted. I’m taking that as a sign that it’s time to do cleanup and housekeeping.)

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 18 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 14 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Makes You Consider Your Own Life – Words of Alchemy

“This book is full of beautiful, inspiring, thought provoking poems about love, nature, acceptance, joys, fun, mindfulness and gratitude! They really pick you up and make you consider your own life and the changes you could welcome to lead a happier, fuller life while reading about Camillas passion and love for nature, family, friends and all the small things that a lot of us take for granted! It’s emotive, and lovely and just a stunning read for a day when you may be feeling low! It’s a feel good collection of poems that really will brighten your day!” – Lynne P.

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 18 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 14 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Throwback Post – The Love of Tree

**THROWBACK POST**

Spring or Summer of 2016 – A time I spent months painting rocks, pairing with poems, which I then hand wrote on upcycled material made for hanging. That was fun! Thanks to all who purchased these way back then!

The Love of Tree

Your silhouette soaks into my soul
and stirs creativity to an unbounded place.
I am lifted by your limbs.
I become anointed with the knowing of given talents.
The knowing and conviction of trusting myself.
Your love lightens the load.
What no longer serves is lifted and transmuted by your strength
to float away with the wind.
When I depart your presence, I leave different than I arrived.
I depart on limbs of love.
I am healed by the sound of your leaves swaying in the breeze.

(I recently changed the hosting company for this website, along with all other websites I manage. In the aftermath, my draft posts got deleted. Oh no! Fortunately, they were in the back up and could be reinstalled. However, the original draft dates were deleted. I’m taking that as a sign that it’s time to do cleanup and housekeeping.)

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 18 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 14 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

An Intimate and Brave Expression – Words of Alchemy

“What a joy it is to read this gem of a poetry book. Full of beautiful free-verse, a memoir about friends, family, relationships and the love of the nature. This is for you if you enjoy the natural world, (as I do,) if you appreciate poetry that delves into the heart and doesn’t hold back. In many ways it is an intimate and brave expression of the author – Camilla Downs’ – thoughts and feelings. I highly recommend.” – Marjorie M.

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 18 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 14 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Latest News: More on the Vacation Time

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(from a recent walk – July 2020 – taken by me)

I posted recently that I would be on vacation from July 26 – August 9th. I wrote that post in a hurry so as to be sure to let all of you know. I have been feeling all week that I want to expand on the reason for this break.

About a month or two ago, I got the feeling that it was time for a break. After the 15 year healing journey I’ve traveled, I’ve gotten pretty good at listening to my intuition. When the feeling popped up a few more times, I began to plan the Meeting the Authors posts to allow for a two week break.

Although I’m calling it a vacation, I will be working on tasks that have fallen by the way side, organizing things from our move at the end of 2019, balanced with taking it easy, reading, and perhaps exploring Reno, and the surrounding Lake Tahoe area.

I will definitely be off of social media through, at least August 2nd, at the most, through August 9th. I will be off of the Meeting the Authors website and MTA social media for the entire two weeks.

I’ve got many non-social media, non-blogging tasks that need or should be addressed, and they continue to get pushed aside so that I can keep the this blog, The Team TLC website, and Meeting the Authors up to date, and continue to engage with friends and connections on social media.

2020 is supposed to be the year of pressing the reset button, with rest, and relaxation. I have pressed the pause button on several areas, but I feel the need to re-access where I place my attention and efforts. So I will also be taking this time to look at where I want to focus my energies.

I absolutely love what I do over at Meeting the Authors. It is such a joy to meet and help promote so many authors and book bloggers. I will continue to do this. However, I most likely will scale back the frequency of the posts and interviews.

I’ve already slowed requesting interviews and reviews for my latest book, Words of Alchemy. Once I share all of the interviews, and reviews in back log and yet to be published, that will be put on pause also.

I may schedule a few (or more) blog posts to publish during the break. It just depends on how many I get scheduled before tomorrow. Once I return, I’ll update everyone with any changes to where I’m focusing energies. I will miss engaging with all of you and hope you have an amazing end of July!

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 18 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 14 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Nearly Finished – Dentist Trip Number Three for Camilla — Team TLC = Thomas, Lillian and Camilla

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June 3 2020 Lower left side teeth done this afternoon, entire left side of face numb. Only one more trip, two at most, and we’re done!

Why am I sharing my dental journey? Everybody goes to the dentist, right?

Going to the dentist is not fun at all. Yet, when you’ve had to wait 13 years, due to lack of funds to address issues, it is a relief and a blessing. Hence, my excitement over finally getting my teeth addressed! YAY! Here’s to teeth that don’t bother me!

via Nearly Finished – Dentist Trip Number Three for Camilla — Team TLC = Thomas, Lillian and Camilla

Release and Comfort – Words of Alchemy

“I have always loved Camilla’s writing. So glad she put it in a book for me, for us, to always have on hand. Her poem form is original and real. I get release and comfort in reading the selections. Godspeed to her and thank you.” – Amazon Customer

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 18 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 14 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

 

Latest News: Vacation Time


(Nevada Beach, Lake Tahoe – Photo by Camilla 2019)

This is a quick post to let you know that I will be on vacation from July 26th through August 9th.

I will be on vacation from my social media, and email during this time, too. If you contact me during this time, please keep this in mind. I have not taken a vacation from social media …. EVER! Well, since I began using it in 2007 or 2008.

With the current situation we will not be traveling anywhere, but I hope to take advantage of this amazing place we call home, to read, read, read, and just take some time to not feel like I need to post something, or feel like I need to engage with others.

There may be a few previously scheduled blog posts that publish during this time (if I get them scheduled before the 26th).

Thank you! – Camilla

Throwback Post: What Will I Be When I Grow Up?

**THROWBACK – JANUARY 2018**

Lillian Shadow on Hill 2014 or 2015(Photo of Lillian taken by Camilla in 2014)

She asked, “What will I be when I grow up?”

Dear One,

You will Be what you already Are. That is constant and never changes. You do not have to be anything other than what is aligned with your heart. You do not have to strive for labels and titles … unless these are aligned with one’s heart.

You’ve been asked many times over the years by well meaning adults, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” You have stayed true with your response to this even when the questioner did not understand your answer, even though the questioner thought that you didn’t understand their question, and pressed you for a different answer.

You Will BE what you already Are. Uniquely You. Sharing what only you can share in the unique way only you can share it. What is “it”, you may ask. It has many names. Love, kindness, compassion, unconditional love, divine love … Whatever it is called, matters not.

For when you share the gift of yourself with another, this gift will guide them in the knowing that they are loved and the knowing of their true gifts. When you share your gift with others, it in turn inspires others to tap into their unique gifts. This sharing arouses the courage in another to share their unique gifts with others.

This creates a ripple effect that can eventually travel the world over. Just your one act of sharing your true self has the power to create a shift in the world. A shift that would awaken many to the compassion, kindness, oneness, and unconditional love which is the core of each and every one of us.

You will BE what you already Are. Stay true to your heart. Follow the compass of the heart. The heart is one’s true compass.

Love,
The Fairy Princess Helper
xoxoxo

Update July 18 2020: I had completely forgotten about this! I remember being inspired to write this by the sheer volume of times that Lillian had been asked this throughout the years, probably reignited by something I had seen in social media. Her answer had always been that she wanted to be a fairy princess helper, she wanted to help people. Many did not understand her answer, or pressed her to make the answer fit into an “real” profession or career.

When Lillian was in kindergarten or first grade, she was working on a project about herself. One of the questions was, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I remember as if it was yesterday … We were in the car, Lillian in the backseat, I asked her what her answer to this question would be. She said she wanted to be a tooth fairy. The “old” Camilla was still a huge presence in me, and I almost told her that being a tooth fairy, or fairy, was not a real job.

However, the awakened me took over and told Lillian that there were many types of fairies. Book fairies, nature fairies, flower fairies, etc. I also told her she could call whatever she does, any name she likes. The name does not matter. At that time, she said she wanted to be a book fairy. Soon after, she shifted to a fairy princess helper and has stuck with that.

I feel this question should be rephrased. I think it has the tendency to cause children to feel “less than” if they don’t have an answer, or an answer the adult does not understand. I feel they aren’t given enough messages that they are worthy and loved for simply being themselves. (A message partly coming to you from the child within me, who always felt less than and grew up to feel she was not worthy.) xoxo

(I recently changed the hosting company for this website, along with all other websites I manage. In the aftermath, my draft posts got deleted. Oh no! Fortunately, they were in the back up and could be reinstalled. However, the original draft dates were deleted. I’m taking that as a sign that it’s time to do cleanup and housekeeping.)

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

“Words of Alchemy”, published December 2019, is a free-verse poetry memoir covering the last 6 years of my life. The poetry of nature, the poetry of healing, the poetry of appreciation, the poetry of love, in one beautiful book.

Amazing news! My 18 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” was published January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 14 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Lovely Walk of Inspiring Messages and Magical Moon Clouds — Team TLC = Thomas, Lillian and Camilla

Wonderful walks with surprises of inspirational messages along the way.

June 3 2020 I purposely did not post these yesterday. First time back here in nearly three months for an inspiring walk. I adore what this neighborhood has done, with lovely messages to brighten nearly every step of ones walk. 174 more words

via Lovely Walk of Inspiring Messages and Magical Moon Clouds — Team TLC = Thomas, Lillian and Camilla