Poetry: May These Words

2017 Christmas Gift to The Romano Duo (My Mom and Step-Father)

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May These Words

This I write to
to express the
gratitude that
is ever more
within me for
the depth of kindness
and love shared with
me and this little
family throughout
the years.

You two,
The Romano Duo,
Bless us more
than can be
expressed through
these mere words.

It is my deepest
desire that one
day soon the wounds
of the past are healed
so as to allow me to fully
spread the wings
of glory I mistakenly
believed were
long ago clipped.

And when this
wondrous day is upon
us it is my dream
to show you with
more than words how
much your support
and love have meant
to me.

Until this day
may these words
forever more ring
true to your ears
and settle upon your
heart with love
and light and
comforting warmth.

I Thank You Both.
I am Grateful for You Both.
I Love You Both.

Camilla 💖
xoxo
12.25.17

I love creating with recycled items! Grocery bag handle for hanging, crumpled packing paper wrapped around a thick piece of cardboard that was inside of a new wall calendar.

Poem written by me, glass stones, sun and hearts of silver and gold beads, three dragonflies with the letters T,L,C, and flower of dark green pearl beads and blue crystal bead, and yarn grass. Lastly a heart prayer box locket with a tiny gold heart in it. (Team TLC colors are blue and green.)

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Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: Liberate This Soul

Cloud Dancing with Full Moon 2017

She was tired.
Tired of trying to figure it out.

Tired of trying to make things work.
Tired of manipulating circumstances
to make things work.
Tired of trying to control situations to make things work.

Tired of living in confusion.
Tired of the suffering
created by way of her thoughts.

Tired of the chains that
bound her to the suffering.
Tired of dragging those
invisible chains through life.

Tired of not loving herself.
Tired of not being loved.
Tired of the responsibility of it all.

Tired of questioning her every decision.
Tired of hiding the Truth from herself.
Tired of running from her own self.

Tied of the darkness within.
Tired of the pull of the ego.

What she craved.
What she desperately …..

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Liberation by Camilla Downs

“When we resist change, it’s called suffering.” -Pema Chodron

When I shared this poem a friend shared this quote. When I first read the quote, I thought, “I’m not resisting any change. There’s absolutely no change happening in my life.”

Then I thought about it more. It’s true there is no outside change occurring for me. Yet, good golly, there’s tons of internal change. And there was my aha moment. Resisting the change to let it all go. All the control. All the manipulation. All the likes and dislikes. Let it all go. Surrender and allow what will happen naturally if “I” get out of the way.

Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: Can I Handle The Changes

Fall Leaves and Trees Vintage Lake Path with Can I Poem 12.2017

Can I?

The changes.
Create fear,
they do.

We’re all getting older,
life is not as it was.

What is this strange
thing happening?

It is true things change,
nothing stays the same.

What is happening?

Can I handle the changes?

It’s all changing
I’m changing
they are changing
nothing is as it was.

There’s no stopping
the changes.

It’s the one thing
we can be sure will
arrive – changes.

Why do the changes
create such suffering?
Why do the changes
have to be experienced
in isolation .. loneliness?

Why does one allow
the mind to create such
suffering with the changes?

Why can one not
be in the midst
of the changes.
and simply shift
one’s perspective?

That’s not how
it is anymore.
Got it.
Let’s move forward.

Why can this not be
done with releasing
that which was and is
no longer?

Why does the change
seem to have suffering
as its sidekick?

Can I handle the changes
happening in my life?

Why does one crave
sameness?

Why does one want
the comfort of
knowing how it
is to be?

Why does one
want to experience
change with
another by their side?

Can I handle the changes
of my life?

What other path
is there?

Embrace the change
Shift one’s perspective
Go with the flow
And know one is truly not alone.

or

Resist the change,
want what is no longer,
and create suffering
for oneself and those
one loves.

I know what this
heart chooses
And will never forget
what the heart will
always choose.

Every morning meditation
and in every moment
this is the place
I will attempt to Be.

Give up, I will not …..

Embrace
Shift
Go with the flow
And know.

Come my child
Let it Go.

This is the Way
of non-suffering.

-2017, Lessons from Nature

A bit of background on this writing …

I believe that everything in life stems from one of two places … Love or Fear. And difficulties with change stem from fear … fear of losing what one thought one had; when in reality it’s gone the second after it occurred.

When I wrote this I had been immersed for the last five months in the creation of Lillian’s book and getting it finished. I had not been able to go on as many walks, had not been writing as much, had not been having my solo dance parties (ha!!), and not doing my wee little yoga poses.

It has caught up with me. The one thing I would not let go of is meditating. Every morning. It has been the saving grace. I have been practicing meditation for the past 6 or 7 years and it has been truly amazing.

Don’t get me wrong, I so much enjoyed creating this book for Lillian. I really do enjoy the process. When I work on something big like this, it’s hard for me to focus on anything else. I become immersed in it with intense focus.

Most of the time I have chosen not to focus on the enormity of being a single parent. I mean truly a sole parent. No weeks or weekends with the other parent. Making all decisions alone. And homeschooling the past two years with my Mom and step-father having moved two years ago, has really added another layer to the enormity.

I had been feeling closed, disconnected, discombobulated, and weighted with a darkness … I had been in my head the past five months working on her book. Which is incredibly useful for editing, grouping, and organizing. Yet, draining when time is not taken to stay connected to the Divine heart.

So … I chose to write  and I felt so much better afterwards. Writing is therapeutic and spiritual for me. It opens my heart. Then I had a dance party! WOW!! I wrote and danced to connect and release with the humanness and felt so much better the next day! Seriously. Incredibly better.

I openly share what I am experiencing and I do this through my writings. Back in 2009, I kept getting an internal message that I was supposed to openly share my life and our family life for the benefit of others. I ignored and struggled with that for some time. I finally began to listen and have not turned back.

For I know if I am experiencing something, another is or has experienced it and what I share will be of benefit. I don’t concern myself with what others think about what I share and if it turns some away. I let that bother me and hold me back for far too long. What matters most is the person who needs to hear the messages I share.

Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry: May You Ever Know

Camilla & Thomas February 2016 Date Day #2

Finished Thomas’ Christmas Gift!

I so much loved making this. I like to use recycled items so this is on a piece of cardboard. The top and bottom border, flower stem, and two hearts are candy wrapper (Trader Joe’s Dark Chocolate Honey Mints) as Thomas loves the color and we save them (and I love that they are only 3 ingredients).

The tree is from an old calendar, the cow is from an old issue of Edible Reno-Tahoe magazine, the house and cat are from an old Trader Joe’s circular, and the rest is glitter glue! Made to hang with a piece of old hemp shoe string. About 5 years ago a friend gave us rolls and rolls of this hemp string. Still using it!

He loves trees, cows, and cats, and I know he would love living in that house … xoxo

Dearest Thomas

May you always ask questions,
May you always engage others in conversation,
May you always seek to understand.

May you ever know there are times when silence is the Way.

May you continue to be an explorer in the sea of knowledge,
May you filter that knowledge through the knowing of the Heart,
May you love this life and live it to the fullest.

May you ever be connected to the knowing of your Heart,
May you ever still hold compassion for all beings, animals, and plant-life,
May you ever hold the desire to advocate for what speaks to your Heart.

May you always be aware of your connection to Nature,
May you always continue to explore Nature’s beauty,
May you always see the beauty when others see it not.

May you ultimately discover that all the answers lie within You.
May you continue to yearn for walking the trails and woods of Nature,
May the peace and warm feelings instilled by this continue to fall upon you as gently as snowflakes fall upon the Earth.

May happiness and joy ever be woven into your life,
May happiness and joy sprout in every nook and cranny of your days,
May you always be reassured that all is happening as it should and all is okay.

May you ever stay true to the compass of your Heart.
May you ever know that the Heart is where my love for you resides,
May you ever know that my love is eternal, throughout all of time, and all dimensions.

I love you,
Camilla 💖
Mom
xoxo
1.14.18

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Blessings,
Camilla
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Camilla & Lillian Rancho July 2015

Finally finished Lillian’s hand made Christmas gift! xoxo

Dearest Lillian

May you always live with an open and light heart,
May you always live knowing you are unconditionally loved,
May you always live knowing and allowing peace, joy, and abundance.

May good fortune smile and shower upon you,
May joy stalk you and be hidden in every nook and cranny of your life,
May peace float always above you as a puffy cloud in a bright blue sky.

May the shadows ever be there to bring delight and laughter to your world,
May the suns rays ever bring a smile and tender joy to your life,
May you never lose your sense of wonder with all things that most have lost.

May you always hear the sweet sound of the magical bell.

May you always know, even after I am long done with this body,
that my love for you is eternal and never ending.

I love you,
Camilla 💖
Mother
xoxo
1.11.18

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I think it was in 2012 when I began making each of them something handmade that incorporated some type of writing from me. It brings me such joy and I feel even if they don’t fully appreciate it now, they will cherish it some day. And, if they don’t, that’s okay too. For once I make it and give it as a gift, I release it.

I like to use recycled items when creating hand made gifts. This is a piece of cardboard. The top and bottom accent are from an old wall calendar which features flowers. The star, bird, and sun are from another old calendar. The flowers are from a really old Highlights magazine. The hand drawn decorations are with glitter glue. And, last, I’ll attach a piece of hemp shoe string to use for hanging the piece. A friend donated boxes of this hemp string to us many years ago. Fun!

Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: Ever There

Dragon and Angel Wings and Bird Wings Vintage Lake May 2017

Ever There

She loved.
She shined.
She let go.

Ever there with kind words,
with encouraging words,
with loving suggestions,
and, oh yes, hugs and happy dancing.

A smile that beamed brightly.
Greeting with open arms all who
were new to this different path ….

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She Loved by Camilla Downs

Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: Shine Bright

Tree Sunbeams and Blue Sky with Shine Bright Poem 2017

Shine

Shine bright dear one.
What your brothers
and sisters think
of your shine
matters not.

You see others shine,
and shrink even further
into the smallness of
not shining your light.
Each soul is meant to shine
in their own way
And no two ways will
be exactly the same.

Your shine is dulled by
years and years
of ignoring that …..

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Shine by Camilla Downs

Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: One Breath at a Time

One Breath at a Time Poem 2017

One breath at a time, dear one

You find yourself in a vast ocean of your own creation.
An ocean full of the humanness of life.

Joy, love, peace,
laughter, happiness, abundance,
beauty, compassion, kindness.
Fear, sadness, greed,
competition, judgements, shame,
guilt, jealousy, loneliness.

At times you feel as if you
are on the verge of drowning.

One’s arms and legs have become
heavy with the struggle of this
ocean swirling with humanness.

What is one to do?
There is no place to return.

You jumped in knowing
there was only One Way to survive
in this vast ocean of humanness.
One breath at a time.

For as you breathe each breath
it is another opportunity
to feel the humanness of life.

Feel all of it,
the comforting and
the unlovely,
and then release it into
the vast ocean to be
cleansed by Mother Earth.

For one day you will feel
the heavy burden begin to
lift from your arms and legs.

You will know only the
unconditional love of this
ocean of humanness.

All the rest is still there.
Yes, it is.
Still swim in it, you do.

Yet, it just brushes by you
as you are drenched in the
unconditional love of all that is.

Rather than struggle
You move in harmony
with the humanness.

One breath at a time,
See, there it is ..
You just took another breath and another
and another …

Keep breathing, Keep swimming
in this vast ocean and know
you are not alone.

You are surrounded and uplifted
by the One Love and breathe
it in with each breath.

You cannot escape the One Love.
It is always with you.

One breath at a time.
2017 Lessons from Nature, Camilla Downs

Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: Love Floats

Love Floats Heart Shaped Leaf November 2017

Love floats
On the wind.
Love brushes
By when one
Least expects it.

Divine love
Surrounds all.
Divine love
Is within all.
All is Divine Love.

At times it
May feel as
If love landed
With thorns that
Penetrate deep
And painfully.

Bring oneself
Into the stillness
One must.
So as to separate
From the pain.

The stillness.
The silence.
Is the doorway
To knowing the
Pain as the portal.

The portal to
freedom of
experiencing
And knowing the
One love.

Love,
The Leaf
xoxoxo
– 2017 Lessons from Nature

Blessings,
Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: Shining Star Bag

Heart Shaped Red Seed Pod Shining Star Bag of Love 11.17.17

You can take
All the hearts
Nature puts forth

And put them 
All in a bag
Made of stars
Wrapped in a
Bow of beautiful
Green grass.

But there’ll be
Days when no
Matter the beauty
No matter the love
No matter the
Depth of knowing
How the Light
Shines within.

There’ll be days
When a heaviness
Envelops and that
Shining star bag
Full of love means.

Absolutely nothing.

There’ll be days
When the sweetness
And beauty of
Every breath
Is not felt or seen.

Yet, these days
Shall pass.
These days
Shall pass.

Pass, they shall.
And waiting will
Be that shining star
Bag of hearts
And love.

For Nature is
Patient.
Nature is ever there
With love and light.

Love,
The Seed Pod
xoxo
-2017 Lessons from Nature

Blessings,
Camilla
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