September 21 2024

It’s been four weeks since I turned my life upside down, inside out, sideways and shook the hell out of it. The first two weeks were the hardest. I had to down Lillian’s CBD oil the entire first week just to be able to fall asleep. My brain would not turn off. I alternated between thinking I’d utterly lost my mind to being in love with my decision, in between anxiety attacks.

I have finally moved past that stage and am fully in love with and happy with my decision. As I walked to my class yesterday morning, I looked up and there was my beautiful child headed towards me. This is quite the experience attending college at the same time as one’s child. I was able to see their new hair cut, give them a hug, and tell Thomas that I love them. We had dinner together last night with the most lively, fun conversation. I went for my walk last night with a full and happy heart.

Let me say, the walking. So. Much. Walking. It’s about a half mile walk from parking to classrooms, then to other classrooms, and back again. I love all my classes. Dance Appreciation, Introduction to Language (Linguistics class), Introduction to Literature (learning how to analyze texts), and Social Justice.

The poem I wrote and shared last Monday is about this current phase of my life. It’s titled, “i go”. I’m happy to share more if anyone is curious. Ask away!