October 29 2024

Today I had a classmate tell me she wants to be me when she grows up. This keeps happening. I do not hold back sharing my opinion, and it’s usually laced with lots of swear words. This afternoon Lillian and I had a meeting with SRC (Sierra Regional Center). I got a wee bit frustrated with irrelevant questions, and said so. I said something like, “Well, this is just fucking ridiculous.” Now, she knew I wasn’t directing it towards her because of the context of our conversation. She stopped and said, “You just made my day, really.” (I am respectful when the occasion calls for it, I’m not a fool!)

So I guess the moral of the story is to be authentic and tell folks what you think, or something like that.

It’s actually the weirdest feeling at times. I’ll be about to say or write something, and the very young people pleasing Camilla will whisper, Oh, don’t say that. I’ll be like, nah, girl, we done with that shit. It’s taken every nerve, every butterfly in my belly, and every ounce of strength to get where I am, and I’m not going back!

It’s awesome how many folks appreciate it, too. And the one’s who don’t … well, that ain’t got shit to do with me. Must get to bed now. Meetings and Linguistics class tomorrow, and work, and the C18 Halloween Dance Party!!