Reaching the Solutions Within Your Own Self

Want a mentor who has deepened into and expanded her heart, who has plunged into the depths of darkness, and soared to the heights of joy and peace? And one who authentically and openly shares this journey? I work with no more than two clients at a time. Reach out to me if this speaks to you …

“Camilla is a wonderful mentor. I took four sessions with her. She taught me simple techniques to connect with my inner self, and enjoy the present moment. She also helped me cultivate more self-trust, self-love, and peace of mind. What I loved the most about her mentoring sessions was that the answers I was seeking for, came from the heart! I also loved the writing and breathing exercises she shared with me. Thank you Camilla!” Jessica Araus, Netherlands

Visit this page to learn more … The Alchemy of You Mentoring Sessions

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here.

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Go here to see latest soul writings. xoxo

Manjushri Empowerment Ceremony and Vajravidarana Healing Ceremony with the Tibetan Monks of Gaden Shartse

On January 19, 2019, I took part in a Manjushri Empowerment Ceremony with the Tibetan Monks of Gaden Shartse. During the ceremony the mantra and powerful energy of Manjushri are transmitted to the attendees. It was an amazing and beautiful experience.

I barely moved for the entire hour long ceremony. It was like a deep, interactive meditation as we were called upon to visualize certain aspects of the ceremony. Manjushri is a wisdom deity of Tibetan Buddhism, or a Bodhisattva (Great Being) who wields a powerful sword used to cut through ignorance.

Mostly, I already fall asleep and sleep pretty good; yet, last night I felt light as air as I got into bed and drifted to sleep. And, had a peaceful and restful full night’s sleep.

We also got to view the progress of the Manjushri Sand Mandala. Simply amazing – built one grain of sand at a time. The Manjushri mandala, symbolizes the need to sever ignorance and attachment in oneself.

I was honored to get to bring home one of the “cakes” used in the ceremony as there were only 3 of them. This was used to touch the top of each attendees head at which time thousands of Manjushri rushed into each person touched.

I also bought more of the beautiful incense the monks make (only have one stick left from last year’s batch) and the perfect size Padmasambhava statue for my wee altar. They ended the ceremony by gifting to and lovingly knotting around each attendee’s neck, a golden chord blessed by all 1,500 monks AND the Dalai Lama. My heart is tingling just writing about it.

There are more events this weekend and next week in South Lake Tahoe if anyone is interested in attending. Thomas and I plan on attending the Vajravadaran Healing Ceremony next Wednesday night. Additional information from their website for anyone interested:

Manjushri (Buddha of Wisdom)

Manjushri is the embodiment of the wisdom of all the Buddhas. Wisdom is crucial for enlightenment, in that it is both the antidote of ignorance, and at the same time is itself the true meaning of selflessness/ emptiness. Performing the practice of the deity Manjushri accelerates the attainment of the knowledge that eliminates suffering. By “sipping the nectar” of the profound teachings delivered by Lord Manjushrl, one has access to the heart of liberating wisdom. This empowerment will include the transmission of the mantra OM AH RA PA TSA NADHI.

The Vajra Sword of Discriminating Insight

Manjushri’s most dynamic attribute is his sword, the vajra sword of discriminating wisdom or insight. The sword cuts through ignorance and the entanglements of conceptual views. It cuts away ego and self-created obstacles. Sometimes the sword is in flames, which can represent light or transformation. It can cut things in two, but it can also cut into one, by cutting the self/other dualism. It is said that the sword can both give and take life.

On January 24 2019, Thomas and I drove to South Lake Tahoe last night to see the Gaden Shartse Monks one more time before their tour ends in this area. This was a Vajravidarana Healing Ceremony. Incredibly powerful.

These peaceful and beautiful humans are Tibetan refugees living at the Gaden Shartse Monastery in Southern India. They’ve been in the United States with temporary visas on a two year tour. A description of the ceremony and more about Shartse is included below.

I pray they are able to get new visas at some point. The peace and healing they spread is much needed in my opinion. And I know in my soul it reverberates way beyond the room in which it is shared and that it is carried through those who attend to be shared with others.

The ceremony was beautiful and magical. We were to first envision the lama transformed into Vajravidarana and to envision many different actions by the lama. One of which was Vajravidarana shooting multi-colored lights down our chakra throughout our body addressing any areas of concern for healing. We were each given a piece of dough to hold in one hand. Then hold to areas that need healing and to visualize any pain or negativity flowing as black smoke into the dough.

Last, we were to squeeze the dough in a certain way; which was passed back to the lama for clearing and purification. Much more healing light and blessings were sent throughout the ceremony. Once again, I barely moved the entire ceremony. My body lightened to a point that I could barely feel it. I felt bodiless and simply one with the environment. Deeply wild, moving and magical.

The ceremony ended with each attendee being gifted with a shining, deep green cord blessed by all 1,500 monks and The Dalai Lama. I was zinging inside with beautiful, peaceful energy last night. It took me a while to get to sleep.

Lobsang Wangchuk, the monk who is facilitator and translator, says they welcome visitors and have guest quarters specifically for those who visit. He also says that they are adding a Quantum Physics building to the college as Buddhism and Quantum Physics are nearly identical.

Got to meet Melanie Tiffin. What a sweet and kind human! Afterwards Thomas took a picture of Melanie and I as we’ve been connected for a year now on Facebook since the monks visited last year.

Thomas wanted to receive blessings from the lama so I took pictures of that as it happened. Took more beautiful pictures of their props and beautiful handmade items for sale. And then Melanie took a photo of Thomas and I with the lama. I’m so glad she suggested that as I didn’t get one last year of both of us with him.

Here’s more information about the ceremony and the monks (from their website):

Vajravidarana Healing Ritual

The Tantric ritual of Vajravidarana is a ritual of purification and has three stages: purification and removing of negativities; removing subtle negative imprints; and offering protection. Vajravidarana purifies sickness, mental disturbances, infectious diseases, disputes, enmities, defilements, misfortunes, bad omens, victimization by others, premature death, negative influences of the stars, harm from rulers and thieves, influence of demons, the agents of death, obstacles, misguidance, and factors against congenial life.

About Gaden Shartse

Gaden Shartse Monastic College is situated amid lush green hills and jungle in the remote countryside of southern India. It was founded in 1969 as an effort to re-establish one of the great monastic traditions of Tibet. A small group of elder monks and fifteen young boys, all of whom had managed to escape the destruction in Tibet, settled on land given to them by the Indian government in Mundgod, Karnataka. Today the college is at the forefront of the revival of Tibetan Monastic education, with more than 1600 resident students, teachers, scholars, and spiritual practitioners. More than 70% of the members are between the ages of 10 and 25 and 80% of these were born in Tibet. To this day, young monks arrive at the Monastery weekly from Tibet, seeking shelter and education. Due to the success of the academic program and the quality of the teachers at the monastery, Gaden Shartse has established a reputation as being the leader in the field of Buddhist and Tibetan studies.

Blessings,

Camilla

See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Go here to see latest soul writings. xoxo

The Top Six Lessons Learned from Tiny Home Living …. As a Family of Three

The last update I wrote about our tiny home living was at four months. Here we are going into our fourth year! I feel we are long overdue for an update. It’s been so long in coming partly due to the fact that I truly thought we would only be here one year, two years at the most and partly due to procrastination.

Lillian is in her senior year of high school (as a homeschooler). We’ve published two books. Thomas reached the teenage years. I embraced, processed and released a TON of old wounds and deep shadow work. Mom and Frank (The Romano Duo) moved away for 3 years and ultimately moved back this past summer (2018). I’ve gone on over 50 dates with Thomas and Lillian combined (as I have a date with each of them once per month). This just touches the surface of all that we’ve experienced.

The Top SIX Lessons Learned from Tiny Home Living …. As a Family of Three

  1. Living in a tiny home gets tricky as siblings reach into the teen years (and not as fun as when they were younger) 
  2. Having only one bathroom to three people is a literal pain in the butt
  3. Be okay with being cramped or be okay getting rid of stuff
  4. Be prepared with ideas of activities to do outside of the home
  5. The grocery store becomes a weekly trip as there is no room to store loads of food
  6. Always try to see the beauty in the situation

One more that is the root of successful tiny home living … 

Purge, Purge, Purge

I will expand on each of these below weaved within the living in a tiny home update.

A great deal has happened since the four month update and more than a few factors that have us still living in this tiny home – an 810 square foot 1 bedroom/1 bath condo (for anyone new here: “us” is myself and my two kids, 17 year old Lillian and 13 year old Thomas. We call ourselves Team TLC to correspond to the first letter of each of our names).

Moving Out

In July and August 2017 I packed our things thinking we would be moving. I reserved a moving truck, a storage unit in case we needed it, and gave our 30 day notice. However, shortly after we moved here in August 2015, Reno began to experience a population boom. Rents began to increase and affordable living space disappeared as more and more people moved to the area. 

Back to August 2017:

As hard as I tried, I could not find another place, that at least had a 2nd bedroom, and that was also not a significant increase in what I am paying here. The management had already told me that they would allow me to back out of the 30 day notice as I had been telling them I could not find another place.

Just a few days before we were to move, I found the perfect place for us. It was a 2 bedroom/2 bath and just a tad bigger than this place. Fortunately, I was the FIRST person to call on the place and to see it. We went to look at it and the property manager said he had over 50 messages and I just happened to be the first to call. Well, my income is not easy peasy, here’s a copy of my pay stub, and my credit score is still trashed from the divorce and bankruptcy. So, it was pretty easy to turn me down with more than 50 others waiting in line. 

Wait. We Are Staying

The day before we were to move, I had to decide if we were going to move out with no where to go or if we would stay here. I discussed it with Thomas and Lillian and we all decided we wanted to stay here. Thomas was devastated that we did not get the other place. He strongly desired to have a room of his own where he could have privacy (and escape when Lillian fell into a meltdown). 

I was disappointed also as I know these two would like their own space (with a door!!) and having a second toilet would be absolute heaven with 3 people in the house; with one having special needs and NO flexibility when she is using the toilet and others are waiting! I LOVE the size of this place. However, I STILL do NOT like the near constant traffic noise and it saddens me that being here is causing unhappiness for Thomas and Lillian.

Lillian and I had been sharing the bedroom. It’s a rather large bedroom and both of our beds (a full size and a queen) and our dressers fit into the room. You can find picture of our tiny place in the previous posts. Thomas had decided long before that he wanted to have a Japanese style floor bed so at some point later in that first year (2015-2016) he began to sleep on his floor bed in the bedroom with us. (If we are connected on facebook or instagram you’ve seen many, many photos of our walks around the lake. Beautiful!)

When it was clear we would be staying here in August 2017, I was determined to give Thomas and Lillian their own space in the best way I could, even though we only have one room (the bedroom) that has a door. Well, other than the bathroom! 

I decided to move Thomas’ furniture out of the dining area into the bedroom and I moved my bed into the dining area. That was no easy task as I have a queen size tempurpedic bed. Those things are like moving a 500 pound slab of jello!! Thomas and I had a heck of a time getting that sucker moved. I called upon my inner Incredible Hulk with deep grunts and screams to get that damn thing moved. I had already sold my dresser and the bed frame. So, we only had to move the bed and nightstand out of the bedroom. 

After getting my bed out, we moved Thomas’ furniture in and had to rearrange some of Lillian’s furniture. We have a 3 or 4 person tent so I put that up for Thomas on his side of the room. It took up more room than I had anticipated so after a few months I chose a different solution. 

After taking the tent down, I made a “wall” dividing the room by using 2 bookshelves, packed boxes, and curtains. I chose not to unpack some things in anticipation that we would move into another unit. This is still how we’ve got it arranged to this day.

It’s a bit more cramped than previously as I still have things in boxes. Partly due to stubbornness as I want to move us and partly due to not wanting to pack things again when we do move! 

Moving Out … And Staying ….. Again

This past August 2018, we repeated nearly the same scenario as the summer before. I began packing and searching for another place. It was even worse this time around. I searched right up until the day before we were to move. We sat down and discussed our options; which were to either stay here or move our things into storage and then find a place to live. Thomas and Lillian absolutely did not want to do the latter. The choice was made to stay here. 

Near the end of 2016, I began deep personal and internal work on myself. This lasted throughout 2017 and 2018; culminating in December 2018 when I reached my tipping point and had an intense spiritual experience. I won’t go into details in this post; yet, if you take a walk through the blog posts for 2017 and 2018, you’ll get an idea of how intense.

What the Future Holds

I am renewed. I am reborn. I am healed (or as a friend commented in a recent performance, “You are healed, baby-child. You are healed.”) I am ready to begin again. While I feel there will always be little pockets of healing to address; I also feel I addressed the deepest of the deep past wounds. 

I am and will be steadfast at moving us from this unit or this condo complex by the time our lease expires in August 2019. Steadfast is my 2019 word and I will apply it to many things that have not been addressed and focused on since 2016 and beyond even that. This is also to include writing (being paid for writing, that is, as I will always write), mentoring others, unconditionally loving myself, Thomas, and Lillian, and working towards bringing to life the experiences each of us would like to have.

Bringing it back around and recapping:

What began as a fun adventure has reached it’s ending point. Thomas doesn’t mind the size of the place. He simply has a strong desire to have his own room with a door, no matter the size. Lillian would like a larger place and she has a strong desire the same as Thomas … for her own space. I LOVE the size of this place. I have no strong desire to have my own room. If I have one, that’s fine. If I don’t, that’s fine too. All three of us would be grateful for a second bathroom, at least a second toilet, anyway. 

The Lessons Learned

Tiny home living as a family is not for the faint of heart. I can see how it would be a breeze for a single person, a close knit couple, or a single parent with one child. Maybe even a couple with one child. But, two kids with only one bedroom, gets tricky as they get older. Much easier when they are young and still having fun together. 

I asked Lillian if she had any thoughts to share:

I still like it here, but still don’t like the traffic noise. Although, I have gotten used to it. Living here has helped me with a lot of my fears, like the stairs and smoke alarm. I am tired of having one bathroom and one bedroom. (She’s referring to the outside stairs leading to other units.) 

I also asked Thomas for any thoughts to share:

I still like it here and have gotten used to the traffic noise. It’s kind of like background noise now. I also want another bathroom and at least one more bedroom.

I would absolutely make this choice again. With one slight adjustment of holding firm to NO street noise. It will take me years to recover and to lose the constant ringing in my ears; from the noise and from wearing ear plugs to be able to sleep. I am very done with the street noise. 

Once More, The Top SIX Lessons Learned from Tiny Home Living …. As a Family of Three

  1. Living in a tiny home gets tricky as siblings reach into the teen years (and not as fun as when they were younger) 
  2. Having only one bathroom to three people is a literal pain in the butt
  3. Be okay with being cramped or be okay getting rid of stuff
  4. Be prepared with ideas of activities to do outside of the home
  5. The grocery store becomes a weekly trip as there is no room to store loads of food
  6. Always try to see the beauty in the situation

One more that is the root of successful tiny home living … 

Purge, Purge, Purge

What can I say? We moved in August 2015. We were incredibly happy to have a place located where we wanted to live. We were (and are) deeply grateful and blessed to live in such a beautiful place, with amazing amenities, along with the gorgeous lil lake and walking trail. I blinked. Now it’s January 2019 and this adventure has reached its end.

Stay tuned as the adventure begins to shift … Steadfast!!

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Go here to see latest soul writings. xoxo

Top 10 Digital Diary Entries for 2018 – The Team TLC

Top 10 Digital Dairy Entries for with the most views for 2018 from The Team TLC online journal

Visit the link below to should you wish to read any of the top 10 entries. xoxo

1. The 2018 Chromosome 18 Conference – Baltimore, Maryland
2. Decisions As We Approach Lillian Darnell Reaching 18 Years of Age – Nevada
3. 2018 Chromosome 18 Conference – Baltimore Maryland – Ladies Night
4. The Daughter Knew She Could by Camilla Downs
5. Camilla and Lillian Update for Chromosome 18 Conference in Baltimore and the Fundraiser
6. The Books Are Arriving and Chromosome 18 Facebook Page Live Event
7. Happy Happy 17th Birthday to Lillian Darnell and Lillian and Camilla September 2018 Date Day
8. Deventer The Netherlands Meets Reno Nevada USA
9. She Did It! The 2018 Chromosome Conference – Baltimore Maryland
10. What Do We Truly Mean When We Say I Love You by Camilla Downs

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Go here to see latest soul writings. xoxo

Featured on The Writer’s Corner

 I am so incredibly grateful to Tania Marie for featuring me in her “Writer’s Corner” series.

Her words sang a beautiful love song to my heart and soul … xoxo

Excerpt from the feature: ” …. The connection the three of them have together is one of balancing teaching and leading, with learning and guidance. It has taken them to dark depths and soaring heights together. It is through their devotion and commitment to each other and themselves that they support the blossoming of one another and are spreading love to the world.

I admire Camilla so much and find her to be a true inspiration, amazingly brave mother, woman, and soul, and a living embodiment of what it means to keep deepening into and expanding the heart as an example of unconditional love at work …. ” Visit the link to read more … xoxo

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Go here to see latest soul writings. xoxo

Top 10 Inspiring Books of 2018

Another I thought it would do me good to review and to share with you too. I read many books, usually two or three at a time. This is a list of books I’ve read in 2018, that deeply touched me, or sparked a life shifting practice, or an “aha” moment.

whatever arises, LOVE that –

About once a year a book comes along for me that is an absolute game changer. This book is one of those.

No one suggested this book, I didn’t hear about it or see someone mention it online. I was at the library for our weekly volunteer work of pulling holds and shelving returns. I was shelving a return book when the word “LOVE” on the spine of this book caught my attention.

I pulled it from the shelf. Opened it to a “random” page and what I read was so meaningful I checked out the book.

Nearly all spiritual books I read contain the same message presented in different formats and from different perspectives. Which I LOVE. As sometimes it doesn’t resonate when presented at a particular time or in a particular way.

This is not one of those books (for me). It is a deeply energetically powerful book. It took me to the next level by guiding me in integrating what I have been experiencing and the path I have traveled the past three years.

In my own words, “Love the hurt, love the pain, love the unknown, love all of it until it is released, transmuted and the heart opens even further.”

Over the past 17 or so years I have been a heavy and frequent user of the phrase and similar phrases like, “Love is the Answer” and “All You Need is Love.” For me, this practice of loving whatever arises gives a new and different meaning to this. It’s the next level. It’s the game changer. I’m in.

“Love is the impulse to embrace the innocence of life that brings spiritual harmony to the forefront of your experiences. Whenever love is poured into your heart or sent out as blessings to others, the light within all things awakens.” – Matt Kahn

Rediscovering Life – Awaken to Reality –

Attachment, desire, happiness, and freedom …. It’s all revealed in this wonderful and powerful book! When I find a book that moves me, I read it about a half dozen times consecutively. On round three with this one. xoxo

The Right to Write –

This book and its powerful content was like a walk down a familiar, well-worn, and comforting path welcoming my writer’s soul home. LOVED every single bit of it. This is one I would love to own and have as part of my wee book collection.

Why should we write? For me, this is a powerful book. The author brought together so many of my own feelings and thoughts about writing, why I write, what happens when I write, and that EVERYONE should write.

One doesn’t have to share their writings. Simply the act of writing is healthy and therapeutic.

Cameron shares how writing can be playful, as well as a practical and profound experience. The art of writing will never be the same for you after reading this book.

A GREAT book for any of my writer friends!! And, pretty much anyone who wants to at least begin writing a daily journal for therapeutic reasons …. I’m serious! This is a powerful book!! I just want to hug and squeeze it! xoxo

Writing Down the Bones –

“The deepest secret in our heart of hearts is that we are writing because we love the world, and why not finally carry that secret out with our bodies into the living rooms and porches, backyards and grocery stores? Let the whole thing flower: the poem and the person writing the poem. And let us always be kind in this world.” – Natalie Goldberg

Another book I deeply loved. Enjoyed the energy of the book and would love to own this one! My reading preferences have shifted for the time being to that of books about writing, memoirs, and creative non-fiction interwoven with spirituality.

The first book that began this path was “The Right to Write” by Julia Cameron. The reading list for this topic is years long. That’s okay though as I plan on writing and reading for the rest of my days here …. xoxo

Your Life is a Book –

In the past I have stayed away from books like this, choosing instead to read deeply spiritual, mystical, and inner exploration type books. Recently, while pulling holds at the library, I was drawn to this book and others like it. Although I checked it out, the book sat for weeks while I read other books.

I’m grateful that there are times when I listen to the inner knowing and do things without question …and really, don’t even know that’s what I’m doing. HA! This book was exactly what I needed, when I needed it. And, surprisingly was also deeply spiritual. Imagine that!!

Silence –

I get incredibly much from all of Thich Nhat Hanh’s books. Of all I’ve read, they carry the similar thread of mindfulness and experiencing silence.

I really enjoy the stories he shares throughout this book and all of his books. Reading this now is what reminded me of the concept of mindful walking and breathing that he puts forth … taking one step for each in breath and one step for each out breath.

After being reminded of it in this book, I incorporated it into my walks.

Big Magic –

I read this when it was first published 3 years ago. Just read it again. Perfect timing as I read it at the same time as “Right to Write”.

If one is in the space for it, this is a powerful book. It held a completely different and more intense meaning this time around. Reading this inspired me to create a writing vow and a blog post titled “The Alchemy of Writing” …. xoxo

The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire –

This has been in my collection for years and I just now got around to reading it. It is crystal clear to me why I just now read this book. And is absolutely NO coincidence. And not a coincidence that it is about coincidences.

This one dives deeper into the coincidences we experience. The content is deeply aligned with my heart and I feel it to be quite powerful.

I haven’t had time to write a post about my 2018 main theme word and two supporting theme words. Yet, the main word is Jump (interchangeable with Leap) and the two supporting words are Listen and Trust. This book is full to the brim of the use of jump, leap, listen, and trust.

Here’s just one example, “These leaps of imagination are constantly evolving into what we see as the universe.” … Yes, Big Yes! I loved this one!! xoxo

What’s interesting for me is that when I’m reading his books, I “hear” the words spoken in his voice rather than mine. Almost like he’s reading to me! HA!

Peace to All Beings – Veggie Soup for the Chicken’s Soul –

I initially put this book on hold thinking it was an easy and short children’s book that we could read before bed. When it came in, I saw that’s not what it was at all. I asked Thomas if he wanted to read it. After looking at it, he left it on the kitchen table.

One day last week, I sat at the table and was moved to pick up the book, turn to a random page and read. I did not put the book down until I had nearly read to the end of the book (from where I had randomly opened it). After that, I began at the beginning of the book.

I am a vegetarian so obviously this book speaks to me. It wasn’t only that, though. It seemed to be speaking directly to other areas of my life as well. I’m not even sure how to describe this one. So, I will pull a quote or two from it with a few more of my own words added.

“Every thought is a prayer,
Therefore, let us
Think compassion
Think love
Think peace
For all beings everywhere.
Every act is a prayer.
Therefore, let us
Be compassion
Be love
Be peace
For all beings everywhere.”

This is a powerful book about peace, compassion, and reverence for life; with references to St. Francis, Jesus, Albert Schweitzer, Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr, and many others of similar persuasion. The overall theme of the book is Ahimsa.

“Each object in the world is not merely itself, but involves every other object and, in fact, is everything else.” -Avatamsaka Sutra

The words and concepts in this book spoke to my soul so deeply and powerfully. To say I loved and enjoyed it is an understatement!

Beyond Civilization –

The foundation of this book is that there is no one right way to live. The author discusses how the majority of us are convinced that there must be only one right way to live, and we are living it.

I was deeply moved reading about how he defines civilization and tribes and taking a look into history at past civilizations and tribes. I’m inspired to learn about and see ideas from a different perspective. Great book!

Honorable Mention

What kind of Mom would I be if I didn’t mention my 17 year old daughter’s debut book??!!

Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories –

Welcome to the radiant imagination of Lillian Darnell, a wonderful and unique human being, the kind who comes around only once in every 56,000 births, as she is missing the short arm of her 18th chromosome.

Leave this reality behind and enter enchanted lands awash in mysteries, happy endings, adventures, and inspiration. Come within and discover heartwarming and beautiful tales, woven with love and magic, brought forth from the imagination of a young woman with a different perspective. Lose yourself in wondrous adventures as you follow courageous, enchanting characters, kind animals and plant life, and graceful Mother Nature.

The delightful tales, legends, and poems within these pages were written by Lillian Darnell between the ages of four and fifteen. The stories and poems are mostly edited for spelling and grammar, yet the bulk of the stories remain as she originally wrote and published them to include a few grammatical errors and made up words.

Will a girls dream of becoming a princess come true?
How can sad, mischievous, fearful animals help humans feel emotions?
How did the world come to have color?

“You can’t help but feel happy and be inspired while reading this book. Lillian’s stories jump straight out of her heart and onto the pages in an authentic, innocent, and loving way. The world needs more positivity and happiness and her stories are bursting with both. Thank you Lillian!” -G. Brian Benson – Award-winning and best-selling author, actor and TEDx speaker.

“Let your imagination be taken away with Lillian Darnell’s writings and allow yourself to be transported to places where anything is possible with love, joy and a touch of inspiration. This collection is born from a young woman with a unique perspective on how our world could be – immerse yourself and come, see the world through Lillian’s eyes.” -Dr Veronica Wain – Award winning filmmaker, Academic, Author, Disability Advocate

“Although all of us who love fairies understand that children, with their vivid imaginations, are closer to magic than any of us, we all yearn to retain that childlike sense of wonder. Lillian Darnell’s writings are a welcome reminder of what is possible when you dream big, and accept no limitations.” – Grace Nuth, Senior Editor – Faerie Magazine

P.S. – There are amazon affiliate links in this post. This simply means that if you click through to read more about a movie and you make a purchase on Amazon, I earn a few cents and it does not increase the amount you pay. Thank you for your support. xoxo

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

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Favorite Movies Watched in 2018

I thought it would be fun to look back at the movies I watched throughout 2018. I prefer to watch movies at home after they’ve been released on DVD. Nearly all of the movies we watch have been checked out from the library. Therefore, you will find these are not new release movies.

We don’t own a television and haven’t for nearly 10 years. I use a projector and portable DVD player and project the movie onto the living room wall.

“WOW!! I’m not even a sports enthusiast and I loved this movie! Oh my gosh! I loved it!! My heart is still pumped.

Any movie that portrays a people being their true selves and by doing so bringing joy, oneness, and inspiration to individuals and a people is more than worth the time to watch and absorb. Inspiring is too light of a descriptive.

Be you. Never be ashamed of being you. Shine your light. And. Watch this movie. Perhaps it’s where I’m at in my own journey that I find this so deeply meaningful.”

Go here to read what Lillian and Thomas thought of the movie … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/09/movie-night-pele/

“I love this movie! The underdog who proves all the naysayers wrong. Based on the true story of Eddie Edwards, British ski jumper in the 1988 Winter Olympics.”

Quote from the movie, “The important thing in life is not the triumph but the struggle.” -Pierre De Coubertin, Founder of the Olympic Games … I needed that Mr. De Coubertin. Thank you!

To read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts, go here … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/08/movie-night-eddie-the-eagle/

I wish I had known when I was young what an amazing person this man was and that I had truly felt and heard the beautiful and timely messages of unconditional love and self worth. Yet, the echoes of that message remain and are known now. May that message continue to travel to all for an eternity. 💞💞💞

Go here to read what Thomas and Lillian had to say … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/10/movie-night-wont-you-be-my-neighbor/

  • Only Yesterday

Wonderful story of one coming to realize her oneness with nature and following her heart. So much loved it.

Visit this link to read Lillian and Thomas’ thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/02/movie-night-only-yesterday/

Wonderfully inspiring and true story of Isamu Noguchi’s Mother, Leonie Gilmour.

Quotes from the movie –

“I studied so that I might express the joy and pain and profundity of being human. That’s what poetry does. Does it not? That’s what I wish to learn. No school can teach it – how to take what is at the deepest level of the soul and put it on a piece of paper..” – Leonie Gilmour in interviewing to be editor for Yone Noguchi’s novel, “An American Diary of a Japanese Girl”

“You’re art will be your weapon, you’re art will be your voice. There are no boundaries for an artist. No borders. Through art, you can speak all languages and lead a magnificent life anywhere.” -Spoken by Leonie to her son, Isamu.

“I wonder sometimes. Why was I so greedy in my youth. I now find beauty in simple existence. In abandoning all worldly desires. Just like a tree. Or a stone.” -Leonie Gilmour

Incredibly moving. I am left without words.

“Poems are my solace for the eternity that surrounds us all.” – Emily Dickinson

Writing. Period. Writing is the souls expression. Expressions of pain, of love, of knowing, of not knowing. To write is to share of oneself. To write is to share love. To write is to live. – Me

The above quote by Emily Dickinson struck me as I deeply understood it. I get lost in trying to understand some of her writings. Yet, I have such a deep appreciation for Emily Dickinson and her poetry as I understand from where the words come forth, even if my brain can’t make sense of it sometimes.

I read many books and content I don’t understand on the surface. Yet, I don’t let that stop me. I am drawn to take it in as I feel on some level I am understanding it.

Be you. No matter what. And. Believe. Great and inspiring story!!

Follow this link to read what Lillian and Thomas thought about the movie … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/01/movie-night-billy-elliot/

I really enjoyed this movie. I resonated with the mom character to points of sobbing. I resonated with the dynamic of having a younger sibling who assumes the role of an older sibling …. and harboring anger and sadness about having to assume that role. I highly recommend this for fellow special needs parents.

To read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts, go here … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/01/movie-night-phoebe-in-wonderland/

Quote from the movie: “Everyone deserves a standing ovation at least once.”

What a mixture of emotions. Excitement, joy, love, and guilt from a place of failure. Such a WONDERful movie. My eyes are sweating streams.

Follow this link to read what Thomas and Lillian had to say … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/05/movie-night-wonder/

This was fun to watch! Plus, Thomas was so interested to learn more about P.T. Barnum that he studied more about him during the movie.

Love the ending quote, ‘The noblest art is that of making others happy.’

Wanna read Lillian and Thomas’ thoughts? Go here … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/05/movie-night-the-greatest-showman/

Absolutely loved this movie! A heart warming testament that things don’t have to be done the way they’ve always been done. It’s okay to do it different. All wrapped within the loving kindness of friendship and family.

Go here to read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/08/movie-night-ferdinand/

Beautiful true story of courage, strength, and grace. Loved it.

Go here to read what Lillian and Thomas have to say .. http://theteamtlc.com/2018/10/movie-night-queen-of-katwe/

What a beautiful story! Priorities and Kindness. An inspiring true story about priorities of the Heart and Loving Kindness. Loved it!

Want to know what Thomas and Lillian say? Go here … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/09/movie-night-radio/

  • A Woman Called Golda

Incredibly interesting to learn about Golda Meier and all this movie covered.

Go here to see Thomas and Lillian’s comments … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/04/movie-night-a-woman-called-golda/

This documentary is incredibly calming and simply beautiful in the amount of mindfulness that exudes from it. I could watch over and over. Not to mention being narrated by Benedict Cumberbatch … such a soothing voice he has. Watch it and spread the message.

Go here to see Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/03/extra-movie-night-walk-with-me/

  • Kiki’s Delivery Service

Third time around watching this one … A wonderfully inspiring movie about knowing ones inspiration and living from the heart. Just love this movie.

Go here to see how Thomas and Lillian feel about this one … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/09/movie-night-kikis-delivery-service/

I adore Judi Dench and the strong characters she plays. She’s funny. She’s no non-sense. She’s strong. And even more so, love the roles where her character remembers her humanity and compassion. Loved the Rumi quotes too.

Visit this link to read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/02/movie-night-victoria-and-abdul/

I watched this many, many years ago. Long before Thomas and Lillian. Oh, how I love this movie. It was incredibly moving and fun to watch this with Thomas. Loved every minute of it. A beautiful movie about listening to the messages we receive. Powerful!!

Go here to read Lillian and Thomas’ thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/03/movie-night-field-of-dreams/

Easter weekend in 2014, Thomas and Lillian wanted to watch something with rabbits.

On such short notice this is what I came up with and we’ve watched it every year since! A 6 foot pooka in the form of a rabbit counts, right??? Plus, Josephine Hull and James Stewart are phenomenal in this.

Quotes from Elwood P. Dowd (James Stewart) …. “Every day is a perfect day.”

“I always have a wonderful time wherever I am and whoever I’m with.”

“In this world you must be oh so smart or oh so kind. For years I was smart. I recommend kind.”

Visit this link to read what Thomas has to say … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/04/movie-night-harvey/

Just love this movie. So glad Thomas chose it. “Play it again, Sam.”

Go here to read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/02/movie-night-casablanca/

This was our second time around for this one as both Thomas and Lillian love it. Love watching this classic with them!

Go here to see what they have to say … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/03/movie-night-singin-in-the-rain/

We had seen this several times; yet, Thomas chose it once again. There is so much one can say about this wonderful movie. So, I’ll just say I’m blessed to have used the spoonful of sugar theme during my early parenting years and have consistently used Supercalifragilisexpialidocious throughout parenting. It does indeed instantly change the mood!!

Go here to see what Lillian and Thomas have to say … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/05/movie-night-mary-poppins/

We’ve seen this several times as we watch it about once per year. Thomas wanted to see it again. We love Frank Capra movies!! I just adore this movie about a free spirited family. Funny and feels good! Plus, love the cast too!!

Visit this link to read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/11/movie-night-you-cant-take-it-with-you/

This has become a November/December tradition for us. We’ve been watching it for many Holiday seasons now. A philosophizing hobo who brings the Christmas spirit to anyone he befriends. Heartwarming story. Just love watching it.

Click through to this link to read what Thomas and Lillian have to say … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/12/movie-musings-it-happened-on-fifth-avenue/

A tradition for us to watch every Thanksgiving night. I adore this movie. Heartwarming and a beautiful reminder for anyone who needs reminding that life is wonderful.

Quote from the movie, “No man is a failure who has friends.” – Clarence, the Angel

Visit this link to read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/12/movie-night-its-a-wonderful-life-2/

Halloween night tradition for many many years to watch this. Just love this silly movie!

Go here to read Thomas and Lillian’s thoughts … http://theteamtlc.com/2018/11/movie-night-arsenic-and-old-lace-2/

We’ve watched this every October for many years now. Just a great feel good movie. Love watching it with Thomas and Lillian!

Go here to see what Thomas and Lillian have to say .. http://theteamtlc.com/2018/11/movie-night-the-canterville-ghost-2/

P.S. – There are amazon affiliate links in this post. This simply means that if you click through to read more about a movie and you make a purchase on Amazon, I earn a few cents and it does not increase the amount you pay. Thank you for your support. xoxo

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

Top 10 Soul Writings for 2018

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Top 10 Blog Posts With the Most Views (Culled only from 2018 blog posts)

  1. Latest News: Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories – Published
  2. My Entire Life Dissolved
  3. Short Story: Dandelion Has Questions
  4. Alchemy: A Haunting Memory Reveals the Truth
  5. Reflections – I Am Called to Reflect as I Begin this 48th year
  6. Poetry: What if it Were You
  7. You are Amazing and I Believe in You
  8. Can a Book Be Published With Little to No Money – Part Three
  9. The Path of the Heart Will Emerge 
  10. He’s A Truth Compass

Honorable Mentions:

**LOVE OFFERING** If you find this content helpful, I invite you to toss a tip in the love offering bowl. With oceans of gratitude … Camilla ….

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Top 10 Blog Posts With the Most Views for 2018 (Culled from all blog posts)

  1. Recipe: No Powdered Sugar Cream Cheese Frosting
  2. Olive Oil as Facial Cleanser and Moisturizer – Oil Cleansing Method
  3. 17 Easy and Free Ideas on How to Rejuvenate Yourself
  4. Taste the Wind
  5. Oil Cleansing Method – Update
  6. A Moment of Defeat
  7. Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories – Published
  8. Recipe: Almond Flour Cookies
  9. Poetry: Brother, One Day You Shall Be Released
  10. Short Story: Dandelion Has Questions

Honorable Mention:

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Top 10 Blog Posts of All Time With the Most Views

  1. Olive Oil as Facial Cleanser and Moisturizer – Oil Cleansing Method
  2. Recipe: No Powdered Sugar Cream Cheese Frosting
  3. Recipe: Almond Flour Cookies
  4. Help Team TLC With A Christmas Miracle
  5. 17 Easy and Free Ideas on How to Rejuvenate Yourself
  6. Oil Cleansing Method – Update
  7. A Moment of Defeat
  8. I Wish I Wasn’t An 18p- Girl: Moment of Defeat – Take Two
  9. Taste the Wind
  10. Lillian and Being Different Presentation
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Here’s to a 2019 in which we:

  • BE our authentic selves,
  • Embrace that there is no one “right” way to live,
  • Embrace that it does not have to be either/or,
  • Turn into discomfort as to release the power and wisdom held within the discomfort,
  • Be the free creators we came here to be, sharing love in our own unique way.

And so it is ….. xoxo

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Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is arriving January 2018. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

The Seed of an Idea

Have you ever had your thoughts overflow with an idea of something you feel you’re supposed to be doing? Yet …. The heart whispers, “Not yet, sweet one. Let’s plant that idea. It’s still a seed.”

The idea for “The Alchemy of You – Empowering You from Within” was born as a seed nearly five years ago. A seed of knowing so deep, that I bought the domain name at that same time.

The seed was planted, the root system was formed and then I moved on ….

Until about a month ago, when the seed was no longer. The seed had emerged from the soil of my heart, ready to grow.

Just as with anything that is birthed, I know that the idea in it’s current form, and at some point in the future, is sure to lay to rest or transform into something completely different. So, if you feel moved; reach out to me sooner, rather than later.

“The Alchemy of You – Empowering You from Within” is a mentoring program I soft launched last month by offering 10 gratis sessions. Only 1 gratis session remains.

“I have done 2 sessions with Camilla, and the process has been so healing for me during this tough time I am experiencing. I highly recommend initiating contact with Camilla if you need an alternative way to process the stresses of life. She is empowering and kind!” – Maria Barber, Nevada

“Camilla is a wonderful mentor. I took four sessions with her. She taught me simple techniques to connect with my inner self, and enjoy the present moment. She also helped me cultivate more self-trust, self-love, and peace of mind. What I loved the most about her mentoring sessions was that the answers I was seeking for, came from the heart! I also loved the writing and breathing exercises she shared with me. Thank you Camilla!” Jessica Araus, Netherlands

This mentoring is for anyone who: struggles with self appreciation, struggles with decision making, struggles when triggered by others or one’s own thoughts, or struggles being one’s true self.

Love is at the root of these sessions; helping to melt the frozen barrier surrounding the heart … xoxo

(Photo Credit: Me)

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is published. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

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Want to Help Spread the Word – The Alchemy of You

Just over a month ago I soft launched my mentoring program, “The Alchemy of You – Empowering You from Within”. The feedback from participants and internal shifting experienced by participants thus far has been profound and palpable.

I can share on my blog and Facebook until the end of time; yet, the reach is limited. I have a knowing that this is deeply needed by society and for that reason I offer prana pay (pay what you can) for those who feel they would benefit and simply don’t have the resources.

A knowing blossomed within me that the time was now to begin. Even if it meant beginning with one person at a time. It all begins with one person, right?

The time is now to begin an Appreciation Revolution. The time is now to learn the Power of Self Appreciation, thereby opening one’s heart. The time is now to spread and share the Power of Self Appreciation to any who feel called.

Love is at the root of the sessions, speaking, and (un)workshops. By way of learning the Power of Self Appreciation coupled with loving oneself through anything and everything that comes into one’s experience. I like to refer to them as (un)workshops as these aren’t traditional workshops.

I offer one to one online mentoring sessions. These sessions are for one hour, once per week, for 4 consecutive weeks.

In addition, I offer (un)workshops. These can be offered as 4 consecutive, once per week, one hour (un)workshops or an in person 3 hour (un)workshop.

I am also available to speak to groups. If the group is searching for a speaker that not only inspires; but gives the audience empowering and tangible techniques they can begin to use immediately, please reach out to me.

Audience participants will learn techniques for the art of self appreciation and loving oneself through any situation.

These techniques will help in:

* decision making,
* being one’s true self and speaking one’s truth,
* knowing the solutions to situations,
* diffusing internal triggers when they arise, and
* paving the way for more harmonious relationships with loved ones and strangers alike.

I am a speaker who will listen to the audience, who will see the audience, and will leave them feeling appreciative of themselves and more empowered.

If you feel called and inspired to help spread the word, it would be graciously appreciated. Should you feel the need to experience this for yourself before sharing with anyone, just let me know, as that can absolutely be arranged.

Please let me know if you’d like further information or would like to collaborate in some manner should you have a service or product that compliments The Alchemy of You’s Appreciation Revolution.

“Camilla is a wonderful mentor. I took four sessions with her. She taught me simple techniques to connect with my inner self, and enjoy the present moment. She also helped me cultivate more self-trust, self-love, and peace of mind. What I loved the most about her mentoring sessions was that the answers I was seeking for, came from the heart! I also loved the writing and breathing exercises she shared with me. Thank you Camilla!” Jessica Araus, Netherlands

“I have done 2 sessions with Camilla, and the process has been so healing for me during this tough time I am experiencing. I highly recommend initiating contact with Camilla if you need an alternative way to process the stresses of life. She is empowering and kind!” – Maria Barber, Nevada

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 17 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is published. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 13 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

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