A Piece of Myself Back – A Heart Opening Memory

**THROWBACK TO DECEMBER 14 2013 with Memories of 1989**

(I’m doing housecleaning of my blog and came across this post that got buried before I had the chance to go back to it and add more. Seemed right to share it now.)

My eyes popped open at 1:10 am. My thoughts were flooded with memories of 1989 and my first Christmas in Washington state with my Mom and Frank after moving there from Mississippi.

I vividly remembered my excitement over spending my 1st Christmas with my step-sister, Heather. Like a child in a candy shoppe choosing that perfect piece of candy, I pondered and searched for the perfect gift for her. I finally decided on a beautiful ring with an aquamarine gemstone. I put it on layaway and remember my excitement in talking with the sales clerk about who this gift was for and sharing my enthusiasm.

The day finally came when I was able to pay in full for it. I had a magical excitement as I wrapped it and wrote the perfect message to go along with it. I think my eyes were shining more than hers on Christmas day while I anxiously waited for her to open it. I don’t remember the full details of the message. It was something about how happy I was to have her in my life and that I’d always wanted a sister.

Immediately after recalling this beautiful memory early this morning, I felt as though something was gently placed back into my heart that had been missing. I will try to describe it ….

The wonder of life as a child sees it. The purity of life. The love. I thought to myself these words, “Thank you. Thank you. I had lost that somewhere along the way, hadn’t I?” Tears pooled in my eyes. I was wide awake. I then knew I must get out of my nice warm bed and write about this experience.

Something wonderful had just happened. I just got a piece of myself back. Thank you …

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My 2018 self looks back on this as a beautiful experience of my heart opening a bit when recalling this gracious memory. Although the gifts I presently give tend to be homemade and usually incorporate a poem or writing dedicated to the recipient, this was not my go to gift in 1989.

Much has shifted for me from that time. I place more value with a homemade gift than a store bought gift. I still buy store bought gifts for Thomas and Lillian. Yet, I also try to always make sure to hand make a wall hanger or card with a special message. I pour all my love and self into these home made gifts and receive incredible joy in creating them.

May you allow yourself to receive beautiful memories when they come calling and know that they have been recalled for a heart opening experience or or other love filled reason. I have also written about un-lovely memories (here and here). They each bear gifts to further our journey in this life.

(The photo of Lake Tahoe above is my idea of an incredible gem these days. I am deeply grateful to live within 30 minutes of her glory and beauty!)

Blessings,
Camilla
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Writing Is …..

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Camilla
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Poetry and Photography: Water Dance

Water Dance

As the suns reflection
Becomes a dancer
Of the water,
She takes by the hand
the one who walks.

She whispers sweet reminders,
To the walkers heart.

She dances elegantly.
She dances of love and grace.
She dances unknown
To many who see her
Only with the eyes.

For those that catch
Glimpses of her water dance
Life loses the illusions
of trickery.

She dances to
Guide them in
Remembering what
Their hearts continue
To know.

She reminds them
They are all different.
Yet, they are all the same.
We are they.
They are we.

The hand she
Took the walker by
Melts into the Sun.
The Sun swallows her
And she swallows the Sun.
They become One.

The one who walks
continues her
Walk of life
Having been reminded
Of what the brain had clouded.
Yet.
What the heart always knows.
And lo, free and lighter, she continues to Walk.
-©️2018, Camilla Downs

Blessings,
Camilla
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A Guidebook to Navigate the Universe: An Interview with the Author of Becoming One with the Universe

Welcome everyone to a very special interview with Al Duncan, author of “Becoming One with the Universe” Here’s a bit about the book:

In essence, it is a guidebook to assist in navigating the tougher aspects of life, with the vantage of authentic life experience. Trusting the process of life and the mysterious ways of the Universe.

You want inspiration on your next step in life? To delve into the deeper meanings of this journey and experience a paradigm shift of perspective in tune with the Universe. To feel a kindred spirit resonation that authentically interconnects to your own journey.

This book has profound, insightful, intriguing, funny, mystical, magical reminders immersed with a colorful journey intertwined with wise guidance to awaken us to a more loving way of perceiving and living life. Readers have deemed this a must-read book. A paradigm shifter. Answers on every page. A guidebook to be called upon for inspiring reminders throughout the journey.

Camilla: What inspired you to write ‘Becoming One With the Universe’?

Al: What I believed to be a curse, was a blessing in disguise. At the age of 13 a health issue led me to crossing paths with a very wise loving woman. She was an ordinary person that lived and loved from an extraordinary place. Unbeknown to the younger version of myself I embarked on an “apprenticeship” of learning and remembering the mystical mysteries of life from a Universal perspective. However it wasn’t to be a mere crossing of paths. 20 years would roll on past. I embarked on a road less travelled where I was awoken to deeper truths about life. A passing of knowledge, wisdom, and unconditional love was gifted as an inspirational baton of light. The choice would be mine as to whether I would decide to continue to share the message in my own way.

My loving mentor’s shock departure of these Earthly realms causing a deep grieving process. However, in time it also triggered a spark of divinity within me that caused a rising up to develop self-belief to overcome my own fears. Self-doubt haunted me with “who am I “ to share such a powerful message. My soul’s purpose would not rest. There was a gentle inner insistence that I was to stand authentically to courageously pass the baton of light of love to others that I had been privileged to receive.

After winning an “internal battle” I chose to step up. It wasn’t just about Al. I deeply wanted to honor my mentors life and teachings, my own journey and purpose. At times all I could do was simply keep going. One step after another sometimes precarious step. I came to believe my soul purpose is to inspire others. Before I did this it was paramount to me that I could demonstrate that I deeply live this stuff. I wanted to give readers a feeling of authenticity that resonated a soulful truth.

Camilla: What are the main messages readers are taking away from the book?

Al: A stronger belief in self.

A sense that they are being guided and to trust this process implicitly.

That we are all gifted in our own way, and all have a purpose and something unique to offer the world.

We are all divinely connected.

Trusting the process of life on all levels is key to relaxing into life.

What is wrong for one journey is perfectly right for another.

Life is magical if we believe it to be. It’s not so if we don’t.

Comfort zones only hold us back from truly experiencing this incredible gift of life.

We can handle anything in life. We already have proof of this.

The Universe is always communing with us all, via signs, reminders, reflections, synchronicities, “coincidences”, and all who cross our path.

Letting go is easier than holding on in the long run.

Every experience is a gift to cherish, learn from and remember a deeper truth.

Gratitude is the ultimate expression to draw more of the desired experiences into our lives as well as being a valuable tool for perceiving the gold in “the perceived not so good experiences”

All dreams are possible once we let go of what has, but no longer serves us.

Love is the answer. World Peace is possible.

Camilla: Tell us about the title of the book and the cover image. How were they decided upon and what inspired each?

Al: When the manuscript of the book was first finished a select small group of people read it. The general consensus was the messages within the book has been divinely guided by the Universe. Hence, using Universe in the title became paramount.

Since we are all on a journey returning to Love, the words “Becoming one with the Universe” resonated.

The cover images are photos I took myself on a simple smart phone. It seemed more potent to have personalised photos used to match my energy within the insights and words of the book.

The single white feather is very significant. When Anne (my mentor died), my ex-partner handed me a single white feather. Anne had bequeathed her Naturopathic materials and other bits and pieces. Among these were the feather.  Anne used to say to me when I was struggling; “You know why angels can fly Al? Because they take themselves lightly.”

The sunset (and footprints) on the rear of the book is a time I believe to be a brilliant time for reflection.

Camilla: What final message would you like to share?

Al: I’ve been through it. At many stages of the journey wanting not only to give up, but wanting out of life.

The message the Dalia Lama delivers of “never giving up” is incredibly important in honouring this gift of life and ourselves.

I had no idea I would have the confidence, the resilience, and courage to write a book with the intention to inspire others to live their lives authentically, with intentional purpose and that they deserved to be happy, to love and be loved.

My challenge was to deeply believe in myself. So I say to you; Give yourself permission to let go of all that does not serve you and choose to dream big, believe in yourself and follow your passionate dreams.

Al Duncan is an authentic, inspirational writer with a unique style that deeply resonates. An ordinary person, with an intriguing journey. His challenge was believing in himself, and moving out of his comfort zones was where he overcame his fears.

His meandering journey has seen him involved in motorcycle gangs, Greenpeace, youth mentoring, a natural intuitive life coach, and a prolific intrepid traveler. His entire journey gifted him the courage, trust in self and the Universe to purposely share his magic as a writer for the Universe.

He speaks from the heart of experience with a depth that is soulful. His insights are an enlightening reminder of what is truly important on this mysterious journey called life.

To connect further with Al, please visit his website at http://www.alduncanauthor.com/.

Praise for “Becoming One With the Universe”:

Loved it! This has been one of the most inspirational books that I have read in a long time. It really has been life changing. It came at a time when I was going through some of the challenges that are thoroughly covered in the book. There is a chapter on boundaries, which is probably the best I’ve read so far. I have been a member of Alanon, and have read a lot on boundaries, and co dependency. The book is filled with humor as well! – Christy Church

This book is a treasure of Truth, Enlightenment and Awareness. I have yet to digest the whole book but encourage anyone who is on the path of awakening to get this book! – Lisa R.

Beautiful and uplifting on so many levels.Comforting but at that same challenging.Familiar but giving depth and inviting the reader to ask the questions of oneself. A must read for those on the ascension journey at whatever stage. Mr Duncan managed to balance sharing his story with humour and grace alongside clear processes and inspiration to find a way back to the heart and living from it… –Karen Howieson

If you are on a journey of self discovery and authentic enlightenment then this wonderfully crafted book is an absolute must have. Al so eloquently offers his beautiful life experiences to all who are searching for guidance and for unconditional support. His words of wisdom come from a place of utmost love and will fill you with peace and comfort. So many of his experiences are exactly what so many of us are going through right now. His words have resonated with me deeply and I am so thankful for his guidance on my personal journey. I’m still learning more on each subsequent read. -LeeAnn

If you are on a spiritual journey, please read, re-read, reopen any page at any time and you will always find some very inspirational ideas, in such a depth, and with so much truth, that it all makes sense. This book, my bible, makes you think, question, realise, laugh… and anything in between… such a unique and beautiful writing! -Sophie

Most inspiring!! Increased MY AWARENESS by AL’S insight. A journey through the universal mind and expands the capacity to experience life from much more than mere money can buy!! I highly recommend this fabulous book!! A journey I thoroughly enjoyed. -Amanda

This JOURNEY from the MIND to the SOUL IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL and HEART expanding I HAVE taken in ALONG time!!
Exciting, expanding and inspiring read! I highly recommend this fabulous book! -Anonymous

You can learn more and purchase “Becoming One With the Universe” by going HERE.

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Blessings,
Camilla
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You are Amazing and I Believe in You

I’m currently “house cleaning” on my blog. I have drafts dating back to 2012 that got lost in the rush and hustle, in the ups and downs of this spiritual journey I have chosen to travel, down into the depths of my own darkness, up to the peaks of the light and love within us all.

Most of the drafts I come across, I’m deleting as, so far, they’ve just been one sentence or phrase and no longer speak to me. This one called to be posted and expanded upon.

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**THROWBACK POST**

October 8 2012:

After she had just shown me EVERY Mardi Gras costume she has designed, made herself, and worn in New Orleans at Mardi Gras since 1992; I said to her, “YOU are a talented woman! What do you do? Are you a designer?”

She got quite, her eyes welled with tears and I could feel the hurt and pain. She went on to explain that she has an MBA and things just haven’t lined up how she wants … she’s in limbo … she hasn’t made any money in a long time. She’s disappointed in herself …..

I instantly felt a connection with her. Those who know me, know why. I touched her arm and her heart, looked her in the eye and said, “YOU Are an Amazing and Talented Woman, What you Want WILL happen” …

I shared some of my story with her and gave her one of my books. When it was time to go, I gave her a big hug and repeated what I had said earlier.

I could have changed the subject right after I asked the question that brought her to tears. I could have. I chose not too.

I chose to let this woman know that she is loved, that she is perfect and that she is worthy. We have a choice when we come across these moments …. We have a choice … ♥ ♥ ♥

… I have committed to the World to not let an opportunity pass when I can either inspire someone, help them see their worth or just simply tell them they are amazing … Whether that’s with words I share with them, a look I share with them, or a warm, comforting hug …

I don’t do this to be recognized myself, I do this from the pain of not knowing my worth for so many years of my life … Too many of us were never taught at a young age that we are worthy just as we ARE and that we have a special and unique gift to share.

We search and search and we do stuff and do other stuff and look for what we are supposed to do to prove our worth, when all along it’s always been inside of us …. The more we teach our young that they are worthy, the healthier the human race will be … Love to all and a big, warm, loving, comforting hug … ♥ ♥ ♥

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Here’s how I’d like to expand on this ….

I do feel it is incredibly important that we let others know they are worthy, perfect as they are, that you believe in them, and that they are loved. However, to find ourselves in a consistent position of being able to do this; we must first turn the mirror on our self.

It is imperative that when we are triggered by others or when we are drowning in the depths of sadness, despair, and the like to let our self feel this.

I am speaking about physically feeling it. Where do you feel the sadness? Is it a heaviness in your stomach or chest or a tightness in your jaw or neck. Place your focus on the physical feeling without analyzing the feeling.

And, tell yourself everything that you needed to hear as a child. Make a script of all that you needed to hear.

For example: You are worthy and deserving of a joyful and peaceful childhood. I am sorry you did not have the childhood you craved. I am sorry I did not listen to you. I am sorry you did not feel heard. I believe in you. You are beautiful and wise.

Every single time you are triggered or in darkness, do this. For every time this is faced and felt and you tell your self what you needed to hear; you heal and your heart continues to open. I say this from experience, from practice, and the powerful and positive impact this has had on my life.

I did not create this exercise. I first read about emotional connection in 2014 in a book by Raphael Cushnir; “The One Thing Holding You Back”, and began the practices he suggested. I loosely continued with the practice throughout the years.

Recently, a new book found me at the library, titled, “Whatever Arises, Love That” by Matt Kahn. This book reminded me of the emotional connection practice AND added the practice of telling one self what one needed to hear as a child.

In my own words, “Love the hurt, love the pain, love the unknown, love all of it until it is released, transmuted and the heart opens even further.”

Over the past 17 or so years I have been a heavy and frequent user of the phrase and similar phrases like, “Love is the Answer” and “All You Need is Love.” For me, this practice of loving whatever arises gives a new and different meaning to this. It’s the next level. It’s the game changer. I’m in.

“Love is the impulse to embrace the innocence of life that brings spiritual harmony to the forefront of your experiences. Whenever love is poured into your heart or sent out as blessings to others, the light within all things awakens.” – Matt Kahn

Blessings,
Camilla
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Amazing news! My 16 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is published. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 12 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

And my book published in 2012, D iz for Different – One Woman’s Journey to Acceptance; which reached #2 in the Self-Help Category and #1 in Special Needs Parenting on Amazon.

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Poetry: Ode to the Sock

Sock, Oh Sock!
What a strange
creature you are!

Your creation was
meant for good
I can see that.

Yet, most times you come
equipped with a built in
irritator to rub
these precious feet.

Rub, rub, rub in a way
that the mind latches onto.
Latches onto and will not
let go until we remove
the offending creature
from our feet.

That seam!
That seam
make us want
to scream!

Sock, Oh Sock!

We simply want our toes
and feet to be free.
Free from the
confines of your
Scratchy
Stringy
Strangling
materials.

We do enjoy the softness
and warmth you provide
when needed.

Yet, most times
we would rather
you Be anywhere else
but confining our feet.

Sock, Oh Sock!
We send you love.
Yet, send you on your way.

Here’s to Toe and Foot Freedom …
©2018, Camilla Downs, Lessons from Nature

This poem inspired by my 12 year old child, Thomas, who asks, “Am I the only one that does not like socks and wears them inside out?”

Blessings,
Camilla
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Wonderfully exciting news! My 12 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

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What Do We Truly Mean When We Say I Love You

I Love You

What do we truly mean when we say we love and accept another?

Do we love and accept the idea of them?

Do we love and accept them for how they make us feel?

or

Do we love and accept them for who they know themselves to be?

What do we truly mean when we say we we love and accept another?

Do we mean no matter what you tell me about yourself, my love will ever be there.
Do we mean no matter what you tell me about yourself, I accept you.
Do we mean no matter what you tell me about yourself, you are worthy.

or

Do we mean as long as who you are does not draw unlovely attention towards ME; my love will ever be there.
Do we mean as long as who you are does not cause others to view ME in an unkind or harsh manner, I accept you.
Do we mean as long as being who you are does not cause ME extra effort and work, I view you as worthy.

This is not a writing to preach which of these is correct and perhaps this makes no sense to you. Many times I write to be set free from the hurtful ramblings of the mind; to process and walk through the lovely and unlovely thoughts that weave through my mind.

I am moved to share to encourage others to write, to experience connection with others, and with the knowing that the person who would benefit from reading what I’ve written, will see it. I know my writings are not everyone’s cup of tea. Thank goodness as that would be too huge a cup to fill! HA!

I’ve been in a twenty year process to shed who I had become and have walked into embracing the first of these scenarios. Life presented me with opportunity after opportunity to stand back from situations and ponder which of these I choose to make my core.

Recently I received news that gave me an opportunity to go even deeper with this learning. I found there was a part of me still clinging to the second of these scenarios. I did not know this to be the case. How could I have known until presented with the situation? How can anyone view another’s choices and way of life, judging that they are doing it wrong and making wrong choices, if they have not been presented by life with opportunities to question their own beliefs?

This is what I have learned in the past few weeks as my heart has opened further than I even knew possible. As I made my way deeper within and communed with the Divine to break wide open what was still closed to loving ALL no matter what. Opening the heart space that is closed for so many of us. The heart space of loving and accepting no matter what that means to my ego, what others will choose to think or say, nor how many will choose to turn their backs.

And this I Know. It has meant the entire world to the one who was and is in need of my trust, support, and love.

And this I know. This has added another layer of patience and empathy. Another layer of stepping back, releasing judgment of others, and BEing the Divine Love that we all are …. Peace and love …. xoxo –©️2018, Camilla Downs

Blessings,
Camilla
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Amazing news! My 16 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is published. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 12 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

And my book published in 2012, D iz for Different – One Woman’s Journey to Acceptance; which reached #2 in the Self-Help Category and #1 in Special Needs Parenting on Amazon.

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Music that Inspires: Love

June 23 2018:

Writing about Love and this came on …. All we need is love …

“Love is my religion,
Love is my religion,
Love is my religion
I’ll take you to the temple tonight
All my days I’ve been searching,
To find out what this life is worth
Through the books and bibles of time
I’ve made up my mind
I don’t condemn, I don’t convert,
This is a calling have you heard
Bring all the lovers to the fold,
‘Cause no one is gonna lose their soul
Love is my religion,
Love is my religion,
Love is my religion
Hey you can take it or leave it,
And you don’t have to believe it
I don’t want to fight,
Hey let’s go fly a kite
There’s nothing that we can’t cure,
And I’ll keep you in my arms for sure
So don’t let nobody stop us,
Free spirits have to soar
With you I share the gift,
The gift that we now know oh oh oh
Love is my religion,
Love is my religion,
Love…” -Ziggy Marley

Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 16 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is published. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 12 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

And my book published in 2012, D iz for Different – One Woman’s Journey to Acceptance; which reached #2 in the Self-Help Category and #1 in Special Needs Parenting on Amazon.

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Inspired by Nature: Love and Acceptance

June 22 2018:

The most amazing and wonderful sunset walk last night. Nature is an incredible gift and blessing. She inspires us to ponder.

Do we love and accept others for who they know themselves to be or do we love and accept our idea of them and how we think they make us feel? I’ve got a writing bubbling forth. Love, love, love.

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Blessings,
Camilla
See It. Share It. BE IT … Spread Love Everywhere You Go!

Amazing news! My 16 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is published. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 12 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

And my book published in 2012, D iz for Different – One Woman’s Journey to Acceptance; which reached #2 in the Self-Help Category and #1 in Special Needs Parenting on Amazon.

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Facing Fear – I Welcome You

Thomas Cole (American, 1801 - 1848), The Voyage of Life: Youth, 1842, oil on canvas, Ailsa Mellon Bruce Fund 1971.16.2

Thomas Cole (American, 1801 – 1848), The Voyage of Life: Youth, 1842, oil on canvas, Ailsa Mellon Bruce Fund 1971.16.2

The Best Version of Me

I expect and know I will see the possibilities and opportunities in this situation. I will Know when to take action. And, I will be the best version of me that I can possibly be. 

I welcome this fear and I take it’s hand as I walk through the foggy illusion fear creates. As I reach the other side I gently release the hand of fear and lovingly whisper, “Thank you.”

Thank you for helping me to see and know the walls as an illusion. The walls I have felt trapped within, no matter which path I chose. Thank you for allowing me to see that even though I may outwardly seem to conform; within I know the Truth. I hold that Truth close to my Heart, so that I may freely and openly share the Gift of my Heart as only I can do in the Way I came forth to share. 

Break Free of Illusions

I thank you for helping me to see the opportunities and possibilities in seemingly difficult situations. I thank you for teaching me to expect opportunities and possibilities so that I may break free of the illusions of these Worldly rules. I thank you for teaching me that being Good and doing things how they are expected is not a requirement. Thank you for teaching me that fitting in is not a requirement of BEing on this Earth. 

Fear keeps us focused on the past or worried about the future. If we can acknowledge our fear, we can realize that right now we are okay. Right now, today, we are still alive, and our bodies are working marvelously. Our eyes can still see the beautiful sky. Our ears can still hear the voices of our loved ones. – Thich Nhat Hanh

Thank you for teaching me the Truth, my Truth. A Truth that at times, creates heaviness and an internal explosion so fierce I feel I may die from the physical discomfort it brings. A discomfort so unbearable I contemplate if leaving this Earthly body is the way to Freedom from these Worldly rules. Thank you for teaching me in the next second that these thoughts are a trick of the Ego. As are all thoughts that cause me to whither and hide the Light Within. 

Thank you for teaching me how to make a decision from a Knowing and Trusting place of Love. Thank you for teaching me the difference between this Knowing and being stuck in a sludgy tar filled pit of despair, anxiety, fear, and loneliness.

The Key to Freedom

Thank you to the Angels who have come into my life to Guide me in seeing the illusion of the sludgy tar filled pit. Thank you for showing me Where the Key to Freedom lay in wait. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for holding space for me to learn and process what has been necessary for grasping this Key and using it as was meant.

Thank you to those who have given up on me. Thank you to those who have turned away from me. Thank you to those who have lost patience with this path I travel. For you have been an integral piece of my Truth as well. 

I expect and know I will see and act upon the possibilities and opportunities in this situation. I am no longer stuck in the sludgy tar filled pit. I am ready to live my Truth. I am ready to receive the slings and arrows that come my way as I live this Truth. I am ready to Love myself, and to give and receive Love. I am FREE. Freedom. Hallelujah! -©2018, Camilla Downs

Blessings,
Camilla
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Amazing news! My 16 year old daughter, Lillian Darnell’s debut book, “Where Would You Fly and Other Magical Stories” is published. Learn more and order here

Wonderfully exciting news! My 12 year old son, Thomas Darnell‘s book, Biggest Little Photographer is published. Be inspired! Learn more and order here.

And my book published in 2012, D iz for Different – One Woman’s Journey to Acceptance; which reached #2 in the Self-Help Category and #1 in Special Needs Parenting on Amazon.

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